Is it really worth it?

A friend from a social networking site posted this on his wall:

"Save the night. Save the day.

Save your love, come what may.

Love is worth everything we pay."

Is it really worth it, though? Is love worth everything we pay?

Every year, my family celebrates Thanksgiving by preparing a lavish meal on the Saturday following the actual Thanksgiving day. This year, it was tonight.

A few days ago, my stepmom told me that she invited The X over to join us for our annual Thanksgiving Dinner. I said yes. Heck! I'm good to go. I'm still in the process of moving on, but I was sure that I could handle it.

Tonight I got to see him again. Tonight I got to spend time with him again. Tonight... tonight he managed to shatter me to pieces again.

I've spent 5 months of trying to recuperate from the crash. I've spent 5 months trying to move on. I've spent 5 grueling months forcing myself to believe that I'm fine and that I'll be okay...

...and it took him 2 lazy hours to have me disillusioned once more.

Is it still worth it? Is love still worth everything we pay?

I pay with tears. I pay with sadness. I pay with grievances. I pay with pain.

I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY.

Is it, now, still worth it?

Fifi

OK. I admit: This trying-to-be poem was done in haste, but it doesn't necessarily mean I didn't mean every word. :)

Fifi, you are, and forever will be, my greatest love.

FIFI

Hibiscus tea from me to you

I thought of getting you a cup

I ordered out of the blue

'coz maybe you were held up.

I love you, Beb

I know you know this too,

I'm happy that you ebb (haha!)

Does this make sense to you?! (LOL!)

I'm trying hard, I hope you know

To get us back the way we were

To gain your trust, I know I must show

That I deserve you beyond blur.

I promise to always be here

When you need me, and when you don't.

There's no place I'd rather be

But in your arms, in your fold.

To end this impromptu literature,

I just want to say:

I LOVE YOU, you beautiful creature

PLEASE come home to stay.

~spanishdude