Drawn to You

I was drawn to you
Like a moth to a flame
Like the waves upon the shore
Like the bees to Spring's flowers.

And I lost you
When fire burnt my wings
When you swam back to the ocean
When the seasons changed.

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Every Yin has its Yang; and I had rather hoped that you and I would dance the eternal Waltz together.
Nevertheless, I am happy I met you when I did. You have fulfilled your reason in my life, and now I understand that you came to keep me from falling apart, to keep me from giving up.

Thank you.

For Siegfried Crow

The Geek in Me

Last night, my friend and I agreed to meet at the Starbucks branch we always go to. I got there first and had no idea what to do while waiting for him.

Then I remembered hearing the soundtrack of a show I used to watch as a child. I saw a comment on YouTube that said "Whenever I heard this theme as a child, I swore I was part of (them)" -- and I absolutely agree! So I got my headphones out, plugged it in to the iPad and searched YouTube for the theme song. I played it time and again, and decided to notate the note patterns on my notebook.

Now, for obvious reasons (i.e. I did not have a piano with me at Starbucks), I was not able to put down the actual notes (again, I only notated the patterns). This is what I came up with:

I posted the same picture on my Facebook account; but I was really disappointed that nobody got the correct answer. One of my Facebook friends commented and gave the right answer - and I wasn't even expecting him to get it right (I really wasn't expecting him to comment at all)!

Here's the challenge: If you read musical notes, try to guess what show this theme song is for. After that, check if your answer is correct by clicking on this link. If you don't read musical notes, by all means, just click!

Feel free to leave comments. Let me know how you guessed what song it was -- especially if you got it right. Also, leave comments and tell me which other songs have the same/almost-same note patterns!

This is the geek in me. Stay tuned for other songs. LOL!

~spanishdude

You Haven't Seen the Last of Me

A threat:
To everyone who has let me down in the past, to past loves who have broken my heart, to the people who have rejected me, to those who have put me in trouble.

A promise:
To those who have stood by me all this time, to those who restlessly, tirelessly, continuously, unconditionally love me and support me.

An encouragement:
To everyone who may need it.







~spanishdude

Cosmic Plea

Venus and Mars on Earth, in one

Ready to love, but taken by none.

Born under the Aquarian sky

His heart's out on his sleeves, so don't tell a lie.

He dances and sings

He smokes, he drinks:

No creme de la creme

But living La Vie Boheme!

He sends this invite to everyone

Would somebody answer, please, anyone?

"Come share my journey" he calls out.

He's worth your time, without a doubt.

Should the Universe agree,

This he promises thee:

The sun and moon, and stars as well.

Love of his life, come out of your shell!

Otro Amor Vendrá

Otro Amor Vendrá is a very nice song by Lara Fabian. It's the song that kept me hoping all through these months. As it has in the past, this song had me waiting for a better love to come.


Nothing is set in stone. Nothing is permanent but change... but we have the option to make the most of what we have.


If only for the recent events, I'm happy. I may have found love again. I am hopeful.


I hope you enjoy the song as I did. For those who prefer listening to the song in English, you may click here.






~spanishdude

Starting the Year

This is my first blog for the year and it marks my 25th year of existence.

Happy birthday, spanishdude.

I only had 1 request of the universe for my birthday, and I got the answer to it pretty quickly -- the answer was a 'no'.

I wanted to have him back today. He said no. Tough luck.

The Hebrews have a proverb that says "If you want something bad enough, the whole universe will conspire to give it to you". I know I want him really bad, so I guess the universe isn't listening.

He's right beside me, sleeping peacefully like a baby. I know I got nothing to complain about. We're no longer together, yet he's still here, "celebrating" my day with me. Truth be told, I got absolutely nothing planned today. I just want to bum around with him -- and I'm doing just that.

Sometimes, counting one's blessings is tough especially when thoughts of what lacks come to play:

- Dad in the States, slaving himself for money.

- Mom six feet under the ground since 2006.

- Him not wanting to come back to me.

- Currently job hunting.

My mentor told me that everything is just about Perception and Objectives. So what do I want to focus on this year? What counts? What matters? What do I already have?

To address bullet number 1, dad is in the States to earn for his family -- and that includes me. Sooner or later I will be with him there, so I guess that's not really a big issue.

To address bullet number 2, my mom has put her subtitutes in place. She has put them down so strategically that I have a "mother" for various specific needs. I am covered.

To address bullet number 4, I'm not entirely out-of-job; I'm getting paid to chill and look for a new post within the company and outside the company. What's the worry?

Now this leaves bullet number 3 unaddressed. I seriously have no answer to this one. I guess when they said "Love is blind", they weren't kidding. Love blinds you. Love takes out that sense so much that I cannot see what lies before me. All I want is him. He has, once again, become the center of my life. I want him. I want him back.

I can feel my 25th year starting with another blow to the gut of emotions and a big ocean of tears is well on its way to my ducts. I will fight it as hard as I could, but I think I will fail again.

I hope for the improvement of my year. I pray for the betterment of all the aspects of my life. I wish for everything to turn out as well as I envisioned everything to be.

If at least for today, I choose to be happy. To borrow the words of my mentor, "suffering is optional".

If at least for today, I will have fun.

~spanishdude

Coffee Shop

Dear Starbucks customers:

As overrated as Starbucks, admittedly, is, it is still, first and foremost, a coffee shop.

As such, may we please ask you to respect the "auditory space" of the other patrons by keeping your voices down.

Thank you very much for your undying patronage.

~spanishdude928