This writer was able to say exactly how I feel. Please, read on.
Love Letter by N. Love Wither
I write this for the one who has yet to enter my life.
As I sit here, pen in hand, my thoughts drift to the day our paths will cross.
It may not be today...unlikely tomorrow...maybe not anytime soon.
Despite my discouragements, I know that you're out there.
I have saved up my deepest and truest emotions for you, and I know that one day I'll be able to fear no more.
To be able to finally break down my barriers and let this heart learn to love and be loved.
I have been shattered, like the words spoken from the ones who came before you. I have been reduced to almost nothing by someone's irresponsible games. I've felt abandoned and discarded. I have felt unwanted, unloved, uncared for...And this has made me somewhat bitter...unattached...cautious. And the only thoughts that bring me back are thoughts of you. That someday, someone will feel for me what I have felt for the others who've come my way. The hope of finally being able to let my heart be in the care of someone I trust...someone other than myself, gives me something to look forward to.
I have my insecurities...and no doubt I'm not perfect. I've finally accepted the fact that I lack in certain aspects: I might not be the smartes, or most talented...and at times, I admit, my jokes are corny. But know this...
I will be at your side when you need me.
I will help you get through your sorrows and wipe away the tears.
I will laugh with you at the dumbest jokes...and even at the ones I don't get or don't think are funny.
I will share the silence with you when you want the company, but not the conversation.
I will walk with you through moments in your life when you don't want to be alone, and cheer you on when I can't be beside you.
I will keep you grounded if ever your triumphs get the best of you.
I will pick you up and encourage you when you fall and lose faith in yourself.
I will reassure you that your flaws are not your setbacks, but the reality that makes you the person you are. However, it does not define you.
And best of all...
I will love you with everything I have to give that it will last you ten lifetimes...you will never be without it.
So still...I sit here, pen in hand...waiting patiently for our worlds to collide. And I am somewhat at comfort in knowing that you're out there and we'll find each other when the time is right.
It may not be today...unlikely tomorrow...but the faith I have in God and love gives me hope that our time WILL come.
For now, I write this letter for the one who has yet to enter my heart; knowing that one day you'll read this and know that even before I met you...before I knew you...I was thinking about you.
Thank you, N. Love, for writing the words I cannot come up with. Thank you for expressing my feelings for me. Thank you for giving me hope that, no matter how distant in the future it may be, he will come.
~spanishdude
